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"There is a piece of brain lodged in my head. Send help."


"There are always flowers for those who want to see them."
~Henri Matisse


"And I want you to know that even with all the bad that happened between us, that you were the only one I truly loved. Even your darkest sins, cruel memories and deepest regrets, never diminished my feelings for you. I loved all of you."

At this point tears start flowing out of my eyes, and this sadness takes over me, making it hard to speak. My voice cracked as I continued.

"You managed to bring the best out of me. I was a better person with you than I ever was alone. Even when I was extremely childish, unreasonable and definitely undeserving of love, you loved me. Even when I wrapped myself in barbed wire, clacking my demon-teeth and spit poison at you, you would walk through that hellfire and managed to pull me out of it, every time.

And that was... really nice."
Poison and Wine
"Steph, you were never at your worst", he softly replied

And I know I will be loosened
From the bonds that hold me fast
And the chains all around me
Will fall away at last

And on that grand and fateful day
I will take thee in my hand
I will ride on a train
I will be the fisherman

With light in my head
You in my arms...
Light in my head
You in my arms...
~The Waterboys
"do not take it personally", my mother said
after he beats my mistakes out of me, telling me that I never learn

"but your parents still love you", they said
he told me that I was worthless
and only a burden to the world
and watched as I tried to slit my wrist with a blunt kitchen knife

"it will be ok", my friends say
but it never was
and it never will
Can't hide
I was inspired to write this 'thing' after a very intense dark dream I had about my past.
Although I have been doing well and nothing really happened in 2 years, everything I felt during that time came back to me like a punch in my face, knocking me out mentally for several days.

People tend to forget how much the past can do to someone.
Wounds heal, but scars will stay.


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  • Anonymous
    Anonymous Deviant
    Donated Nov 7, 2010, 7:43:33 PM
And this is how it ends
have fun with your bullshit

You know where to find me
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